My Dark Vanessa

Kate Elizabeth Russell

出版时间

2020-01-28

ISBN

9780062941503

评分

★★★★★
书籍介绍

2000. Bright, ambitious, and yearning for adulthood, fifteen-year-old Vanessa Wye becomes entangled in an affair with Jacob Strane, her magnetic and guileful forty-two-year-old English teacher.

2017. Amid the rising wave of allegations against powerful men, a reckoning is coming due. Strane has been accused of sexual abuse by a former student, who reaches out to Vanessa, and now Vanessa suddenly finds herself facing an impossible choice: remain silent, firm in the belief that her teenage self willingly engaged in this relationship, or redefine herself and the events of her past. But how can Vanessa reject her first love, the man who fundamentally transformed her and has been a persistent presence in her life? Is it possible that the man she loved as a teenager—and who professed to worship only her—may be far different from what she has always believed?

Alternating between Vanessa’s present and her past, My Dark Vanessa juxtaposes memory and trauma with the breathless excitement of a teenage girl discovering the power her own body can wield. Thought-provoking and impossible to put down, this is a masterful portrayal of troubled adolescence and its repercussions that raises vital questions about agency, consent, complicity, and victimhood. Written with the haunting intimacy of The Girls and the creeping intensity of Room, My Dark Vanessa is an era-defining novel that brilliantly captures and reflects the shifting cultural mores transforming our relationships and society itself.

用户评论
有些地方有点重复,整体是本好书,别忘了,这是这位作者的debut novel!
故事本身一般,但是能把这个题材里的重点和关键生动的叙述出来就值得四星,看完这本书以后对师生恋题材产生PTSD了,不管怎样即使双方自愿,其背后的心理影响永远无法被忽视,不成熟的心智,power control,这些都是值得我们注意的要义,万万不可romanticize师生恋,无论如何它都必然是unethical的(说真的这本书断断续续看了一个月,就是因为每次看多了心里就非常难受,需要休息几小时脱敏)
I don’t see anything special about Vanessa comparing with her peers which makes this a more horrific thing. I wish girls will be harsh to others but nicer to themselves.
很类似读房思琪给我的感觉,阅读过程中有多重痛苦,第一会由于和女主产生共情而痛苦,第二会忍不住想要谴责女主,第三又因为不想让自己陷入受害者的逻辑里而痛苦,看得我十分纠结。单从语言风格上来说,我觉得这本书挺一般的,语言太简单,不如房思琪那么细腻精致,不知道是不是英文和中文给我带来的阅读差异。
The post MeTwo era Lolita.
比起《Lolita》,这本书的内涵复杂得多,作者从家庭、同伴、大众媒体的角度讨论了性化少女的社会文化对少女自我认知的扭曲,是如何便利性侵犯罪的。少年Vanessa看似是被Strane这一个人诱奸了,其实是被整个社会的恋童文化围猎了,而且因为Vanessa本人就成长在这种恋童文化里,吸收了种种毒素,导致她自己都参与了对自己的绞杀。受害者的一部分和加害者共谋,一起迫害她自己,这是这类犯罪的复杂性所在。没有必要为了维持受害者的“纯洁形象”,就否认这种共谋,这只说明她不止受害于加害者,还受害于把性化少女、意淫少女当做正常的男权社会洗脑。事实上要阻止更多的少女受害,就必须先认清、再切断这种共谋。
This feels like going through trauma, struggling, relapsing, reliving the trauma again and again before finally seeing a little bit of light at the end of a tunnel. Deeply emotional.
You are so special I’m impressed 很多似曾相识的桥段和剧情,还好这一切是我在成年以后才经历的,也足够traumatized了,完全能理解作者romanticize一切的心情,“我希望这是一个love story”
Abuse don't have to be physical. Trauma sometimes takes a lifetime to recover from. But by comparison, the story in the 2000s timeframe is better constructed than the one in the 2010s.
她想要Strane渴望她的施舍。如果所有爱情都趋于平庸的痛苦,她只不过想要一个不同的故事只属于她。我太理解她了。
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